loves!

i have nothing else to ask for.
he is everything that im not.
he fills in all my loopholes.

he completes me.
he who makes me cry
but also make me smile.

he who supports me in all i do.
he who encourages me to be strong.
he who allows me to make mistakes
and forgive them.

simply him.
him whom i heart. <3

SICK.

im sick yesterday and today.
stuck at home.
lying down and feeling really weak.

i vomitted twice yesterday and practically couldnt eat anything.
my whole body feels cold.
my stomach was painfully piercing.
and my bag's strap came off.

yeah. people might think it was a bad day for me yesterday.

but the irony thing is. it aint. wanna noe why? :)

well, yesterday, dearie came to meet me at pasir ris park. we spent some quality time together. i am loving him more each day. then, kakak saba fie and fadz came down to the beach and we slacked the whole afternoon till 9 plus. we played cards...and lastly, sat on the breakwaters and have some time with our own significant other. ehhehe. i love them. and i love him.

muackss to dearie!

I who had hurt myself.

it was a whirlpool of emotions. never had i expect that it would hurt me soo much this time. it was a mere understanding between both of us. but the misunderstandings were too the extremes that both of us just had it. pushed us away from each other. i broke down. to my very last. i cried my hearts out. tried to wash my pain away. the legs could no longer carry the aching soul. i bought the tickets alreadi and he had it planned alreadi for both of us. somehow, we both screwed up. and ended up hurting each other badly. saying things that didnt sound right.

he planned the whole day for me alreadi. and i had to screw up? is this how i repay how patient he has been for me? for being sick and still wanted to go out with me? im such a fucken bitch who doesnt know how to appreciate!

Dear God...forgive him for loving such a useless heartless villain like me.

JUST LOVE.

an exhausting journey im going through right now.
every obstacle that i face drains out my energy.
i need a breather. i need a time out. im tired.

fie, fadz...the love that you guys share is inevitable. please keep the love my two dears...love you both to bits and pieces!

saba&kakak...korg kan boleh build a beautiful castle with your endless beautiful words. keep the love alive you both!

wan darling...im sorry about the other day. i shouldnt have said that to you. i hope you are not angry with me anymore. whow...you got me soo worried when u didnt ans my calls and all...my bad. love you dear. keep the flame goin strong hun. do not let go of my hands and lead me through the journey to reach our beautiful castle. stay with me and i will be with you all the time.

farahandshahrul...these two lovebirds! ehhe ive yet to meet him annoying biatch farah..miss u lah syg! remember far...if its love, stay strong and fight for it. loike what eu told me that time. treasure him and appreciate him.

seri...take care ok syg...love you beb.

aziemah...everyone who reads this, please sedeqahkan al-fatihah for aziemah's grandmother yang baru hembuskan nafasnya yang terakhir. innalillah. sayang..stay strong. i love you dear...

ooze...miss ya darl!

LOVE IS AROUND ME AND I LOVE MY LIFE. THANK YOU GOD...THANK YOU!

him whom i heart...

To my dearest

Never once had I imagined that I would meet you.
Never once had I imagined that there is someone as wonderful as you.
Never once had I imagined that I would fall in love with you.

All my insecurities.
My naggings.
My screamings and shoutings.
All you did was just putting up with it.

My dearest.
This heart beats for noone except you.
This mind thinks of noone except you.
This mouth doesn’t mention any name except you.

I am sorry for not trusting you.
For being such a fool.
Always thinking that you aint true
Me punishing you was damn cruel.

My dearest.
A lot of flaws in me that I myself am trying to change.
There a lot of things that may make you steer away and cringe.
But im begging you to stay.
Or this heart may just break and fray.

My dearest.
You are my bestfriend.
Boyfriend.
Lover.
Enemy.
Acquaintance.

My life.
My soul.
My heart.
My everything.

After every fights.
Every arguments.
Every quabbles.
The tears I shed shows how much I still love you.

I am willing to try to be your perfect girl.
I am willing to try to make you the happiest man on earth.
I am willing to try to be the first one to carve that smile on your face.
I am willing to make you proud of me.

But please don’t leave me.
Please trust me that im gonna trust you like totally.
Please hang in there.
Please put up with me.

Because I love you so
And am not willing to ever let you go.

My dearest,
Please.

Is this love...?

the security in your touch.
the passion in your gaze.
the comfort in your presence.

is this what you call love?

seminit tak jumpa macam sehari
sehari tak jumpa macam seminggu
seminggu tak jumpa macam sebulan
sebulan tak jumpa macam setahun.

kalau jodoh, tak ke mana.

p.s. dearie bought me a new shoe! wheee...thanks dear!