I who had hurt myself.

it was a whirlpool of emotions. never had i expect that it would hurt me soo much this time. it was a mere understanding between both of us. but the misunderstandings were too the extremes that both of us just had it. pushed us away from each other. i broke down. to my very last. i cried my hearts out. tried to wash my pain away. the legs could no longer carry the aching soul. i bought the tickets alreadi and he had it planned alreadi for both of us. somehow, we both screwed up. and ended up hurting each other badly. saying things that didnt sound right.

he planned the whole day for me alreadi. and i had to screw up? is this how i repay how patient he has been for me? for being sick and still wanted to go out with me? im such a fucken bitch who doesnt know how to appreciate!

Dear God...forgive him for loving such a useless heartless villain like me.