him whom i heart...

To my dearest

Never once had I imagined that I would meet you.
Never once had I imagined that there is someone as wonderful as you.
Never once had I imagined that I would fall in love with you.

All my insecurities.
My naggings.
My screamings and shoutings.
All you did was just putting up with it.

My dearest.
This heart beats for noone except you.
This mind thinks of noone except you.
This mouth doesn’t mention any name except you.

I am sorry for not trusting you.
For being such a fool.
Always thinking that you aint true
Me punishing you was damn cruel.

My dearest.
A lot of flaws in me that I myself am trying to change.
There a lot of things that may make you steer away and cringe.
But im begging you to stay.
Or this heart may just break and fray.

My dearest.
You are my bestfriend.
Boyfriend.
Lover.
Enemy.
Acquaintance.

My life.
My soul.
My heart.
My everything.

After every fights.
Every arguments.
Every quabbles.
The tears I shed shows how much I still love you.

I am willing to try to be your perfect girl.
I am willing to try to make you the happiest man on earth.
I am willing to try to be the first one to carve that smile on your face.
I am willing to make you proud of me.

But please don’t leave me.
Please trust me that im gonna trust you like totally.
Please hang in there.
Please put up with me.

Because I love you so
And am not willing to ever let you go.

My dearest,
Please.