the bright sunshine

i woke up with a smile on my face.
the bright sunshine lighted every inch of my room.
rejuventates every part of me.

memories of yesterday still fresh in my mind.
its brought forward to today
hopefully they will help me encounter today's roadblocks.

good morning to sleepyhead:)

and to all my fellow readers
today is a bright day.
start it with a huge smile aites.

take care to all
princess hiesha

errr...

i just do not feel like blogging today.
but im writing something down.
haha. how ironic.

nope its not that im not in a good mood.
in fact, my day went good today.
had a splendid day.

but am just running out on my words.
my mind is blocked with vacuum occupying the space.
my heart is numbed with all the emotions bottling up.

till then,
princess hiesha wishes a good night to readers
take care.

HANYA YANG MAHA ESA...

YA TUHAN.

ANDAI HANYA KAMU YANG MENGERTI PERASAANKU
ANDAI KAMU SAHAJA YANG MAMPU MENGUBATI LUKA INI
ANDAI HANYA KAMU YANG DAPAT MEMBERI KETENANGAN
PADA HATI DAN JIWA YANG BERKECAMUK

YA TEMAN.

MAAFKAN DIRI INI
JIKA TELAH MELUKAKAN HATIMU
MEMBUAT KAU MEMBENCIKU
ANDAINYA ADA CARA LAIN AKU DAPAT MENGUBATI LUKAMU
YANG TELAH KU PARUT SENDIRI

HANYA YANG MAHA ESA TAHU PERASAAN KU INI
TIADA YANG LAIN

"i do not want to gain sympathy for my wrong doings."

PENTAS JANJI

pentas janji.

"kita akan bersama walau apa jua...janji?"

my proudest moments.
was when i got a hug from my sister.
and we cried.
together.
there, i was proud.
for God has given me her in my life.

the proudest moments.
when i finished and went out on stage waving to the audience.
and i cried.

the proudest moments.
when i hugged my daddy.
and i cried.

the proudest moments.
when i saw my bestest friends.
farah. seri. zie. ooze.
when i saw my "family"
fadz. fifi. izzat. saba. alia.
when i know that somewhere in the crowd.
mr rider was sitting and watching the show.
when i know that among the crowd
was my bestie irsyad. and his frens.
when i know at backstage,
my darling ama worked her ass off.
and i ran out of the stage hugging her after its all over.
when among the crowd.
were friends like farhan etc.
thank you all for your presence at the production.

the proudest moments.
when all titisan members hugged.
and we cried together.
all our efforts have come up to this.

pentas janji.
good job MAG.

my beautiful disaster.

riding on his bike.
taking all my troubles away.
robbing my miseries away.

the wind.
did a marvellous job
in blowing away my pain, my cries, my disappointment.

the mysterious rider.
he took me on a splendid journey.
taking me to places ive never been to.

the sunset was our witness
to a wonderful day.

the beautiful disaster
treated the lady well
pure gentleman.

i enjoyed yesterday.
after sucha long time.
the thrill.
the fear.
the pain.
was all worth it.

thank you mr. rider.

my dear, im sorry.

the pain that he had to go through was tremendous.
when i said goodbye, i crushed his every dreams.
when i asked him to let it go, i could hear the disappointment in his voice.

am i being selfish?

all i wanted was to stop lying to myself.
stop forcing myself.
stop deceiving him.
stop leading him on further.

am i being selfish?
and mean?

yes.
the moments spent was wonderful.
but feelings cant be forced can it?

i am truly disappointed with my actions.
i have disappointed alot of people around me.
im sorry.
im being selfish.

im sorry.