baby, i will wait for you.

you made me feel complete.
you made me live again.
you made me smile.
you made me love again.

but sometimes i cant help
feeling insecure about myself.

can you please take these insecurities away?
away from me?
theyre killing me.

will you....?

it was a huge hurdle that we had encountered and climbed over it. now, that is just the beginning and there is more to come. dear, are you willing to be by my side, holding my hands and encouraging both of us to face our next hurdle together? will you be my strength and my courage to face my fears? will you make me trust you again?
will you be there when i need you? will i be your one and only and theres noone else?
will you wait for me? will you be patient with me? will you stand my nonsense? will you be bored with my arguments and nagging? will you love me more than yesterday and even more the next day? will you fill in those empty spaces in my heart? will you hold me tight through the night?

will you be my dearie forever?

hrmms...let God decide that for us.

is it wrong to be selfish?
to be possesive?
to be the one and only one in the person's life.

i dont like sharing my love.

AT THE END OF THE ROAD...

what has life planned for us?
what is at the end of the road?
what do i have to go through to reach my destination?

sometimes i sit and wonder.
why am i here?
do i deserve you?
who am i?
who are you?

all i want is that palace.
built with strong cement:trust.
decorated with beautful flowers:love
a gate thats so tall and a guard:loyalty
and with you living with me in the palace.

take me through the rough road.
hold my hands and never let go.
hold me tight and secure me.

help me carry the cement as we go along.
find me the best guard we can have.
and pick beautiful flowers with me.

the start of a new chapter in my life.

love,
princess hiesha

you impressed me with yourself.
your true self.
never fail to make me smile whenever we meet.
the feelings grew more each day.

last night was a fusion of cries and laughters and rolling on the bed and restlessness. be strong aite my dear sis...eu have many people around eu...lets roll summore!!! ehhe..love eu kak!

could i love you for a lifetime?
could i look into eur eyes?
could i have this night to be shared forever?

could i hold eu close beside me?
could i hold eu for all time?
could i have this kiss forever?

love,
hiesha daniels

HER.

its about Her.
again.
the reason why i dont trust you.
your words. your stories.

is it wrong of me not to believe him?
is it wrong of me to have negative thoughts?
is it wrong of me to prepare myself for the worst?
is it wrong of me to think wrongly of you?

instead of telling me and calming me down.
you turned the tables round.
turning the blame around.
saying that all i want is for you to leave.

shut up.
when all thats coming out of your mouth are lies.
shut up.
when you want to deceit me with your beautiful words.
shut up.
shut up.
shut up.

but please dont leave...


when i need attention i tend to nag.
i dont know why you love me
but thats why i love you.

ANOTHER SURPRISE???

14 april: ANOTHER BURTHDAY SURPRISE!

heheh....

THIS TIME INVOLVED ALL MY DARLINGS...

FARAH.
SERI.
AZIEMAH.
AMALINA & RAZAK.
AMINAH.

ALL THE PEOPLE THAT I LOVE AND ADORE.

SERI LIED TO US! SHE TOLD US THAT SHE WANTED TO MEET THIS GUY AND LIKE KENAL2KAN US. AT FIRST ME AND FEROOZE WERE LIKE WHUTTTTTTTT???? IS SHE KERAZZEEE? BUT THEN I WAS LIKE NVM LAH...IM UP FOR ANYTHING. THEN WHEN WE REACHED PASIR RIS PARK, WE WERE BLINDFOLDED AND SHE TIED STH AROUND OUR NECKS. THEN WHEN WE OPENED OUR BLONDFOLDS, RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES, WERE ALL MY DARLINGS!!!! AND I SCREAMED LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!!!! AHHA...I DIDNT EXPECT THEM TO BE THERE!!! ESPECIALLY AMA, RAZAK AND AMINAH. DAMN SHOCKED LAHH! SUDDENLY MY EYES AND BRAIN CANT REGISTER LIKE WHO ARE THEY KINDA THINGG...HEHEH...AND GUESS WHUT...I REALISED THAT SERI MADE US WEAR A BIB...SOO ALL THE WAY WHEN WE WALKED, WE WERE LIKE WEARING A BIB. AHHA...DAYYM STUPID LAH WE MUST HAF LOOKED!

THEN WE LIKE ATE!!!! SERI BAKED THE YUMMMMMYLICIOUS CAKE! I SOOO LOVED IT! AND AZIEMAH COOKED FOR US THIS WHOWNESS SPAGHETTI!!! EHEH...I BROUGHT HOME MOST OF IT! FOR ME TO GET FATTER! HEHEHE..THEN WE CAMWHORED! TOOK LOOAADS OF PICS...AND GUESS WHUT...ME AND FEROOZE KENA SABO WITH CAKE AND ALL...ITS DAMMMNNN DISGUSTING I SWEEAR!!! MY TUDUNG AND MY FACE SMELT OF CAKE...EWWW....PURE DISGUSTINGNESS....HEHEHE....

I ENJOYED MYSELF SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCHHHH YESTERDAY!!! LIKE WOHOOOOO! CAN I HAVE THAT LIKE EVERYDAY??? HAHAHA...PRETTEH PLEASSEEE!

sidetrack.....

dear, whats wrong? i dont feel good. somethings wrong. i kinda sense it...please tell me..dont keep me in the shadows...and please get well soon...i know youre in a lot of pain right now..endure ok..i wish i could be there with eu...im sorry....take care.

dearest sister,
if theres anything wrong, im here aites...just a call away...

NOW I WANNA THANK ALL THOSE WHO MADE YESTERDAY POSSIBLE AND MAGNIFICENTLY WONDERFUL!

SERI. FARAH. AZIEMAH. AMALINA. RAZAK. AMINAH. FAIZAL. FATIN.
THESE ARE MY DARLINGSS AND NOONE CAN TAKE THEM AWAY FROM MY HEART AND MIND AND SOUL!
THEYRE MY SOURCE OF INSPIRATION AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!
PLEASE GOD, LET US STAY THIS WAY!!!

MUAKKKKSSS TO MY DARLINGS!!!
AND SISTER!
AND DEARIE!

TAKE CARE PEOPLE!!!!!!!
princess hiesha.

WHAT A BIRTHDAY!

IM LEGALLY 18 NOW!!!!!
ALHAMDULILLAH....HEHEHE :)
HOW DID MY DAY GO? LEMME TELL YOU.

IT WAS AROUND 11 PLUS WHEN I GOT A CALL FROM KAKAK.
SHE WOKE ME UP.
ASKED ME TO OPEN THE DOOR.
AND I WAS LIKE HUH? WHAT? (IN MY BLUR VOICE)
GUESS WHAT???
SHE SURPRISED ME WITH A BIRTHDAY CAKE AND PRESENTS!!!
I WAS SOOO DAMN SHOCKED THAT I KEPT ASKING MYSELF AM I DREAMING OR WHAT?? EHHE
THAT WAS THE BEST BIRTHDAY SURPRISE EVER AND IM STILL SHOCKED THAT IT HAPPENED.

KAK, THANK YOU FOR THE AWESOMELY SUMPTUOUS CAKE. I SOOO LOVE IT. EHHE..AND IM EATING IT NOW AGAIN. I SOOO LOVE YOUR PRESENTS! A PAIR OF GRANDHA SLIPPERS AND A BRACELET FROM DOROTHY PERKINS. I WORE THEM STRAIGHTAWAY WHEN I WENT OUT WITH HER TO VIVO.

WE WATCHED MUKHSIN AT VIVO. OH GOD! THE SHOW...WAS MARVELLOUSLY SWEET LAHH! I LOVE IT MAN...LIKE SERIOUSLY! ITS BLAWRRDY SWEET AND VERY TOUCHING AND VERY REAL..I SOO ENJOYED THE SHOW. EVEN THO ITS LIEK FREAKINGG 10 BUCKS BUT ITS DEFINITELY WORTH IT! AWSOME TIME. AWESOME TIME.

AFTER THAT WALKED AROUND WITH KAKAK. WENT WINDOW SHOPPING AT FOREVER 21. OHHHH! I SOOO NEED TO SHOP THERE! HEHE...

THEN MET UP WITH SABA AT VIVO. ANOTHER SURPRISE. HAHA. FIFI AND FADZ CAME TOO! IT WAS A SURPRISE GATHERING! BUSTED! AT FIRST CHEATED ME SAYING NOT CUMING CUZ THEY WERE FIGHTING. THEN THEY SHOUTED HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES AT BURGER KING. AHHAHA! I WAS DAMN SHOCKED LAH!

THEN WE ATE AT THE ROOFTOP AT VIVO AND CAMWHORED LIKE NOOOBODY'S BUSINESS!

OOH...BEATIFUL PICS WE TOOK..VERY BEAUTIFUL INDEED...HEHEHE I SOOO LOVE ALL OF THEM!!! WITH AL MY HEART!!!

AT NIGHT, WENT TO MEET WAN. EHHE...HE PICKED ME UP AT TAMP MRT AROUND THERE. AND WE WALKED ALL THE WAY TO PASIR RIS. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT...UNDER THE STARS AND THE DARK BLACK SKY ABOVE US. IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL WALK. LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. IT WAS SPECTACULAR. THE SIMPLE THINGS THAT WE SHARE. THE SMALL LIL THINGS THAT WE DO FOR EACH OTHER MEANS ALOT. A SIMPLE MAN BUT WITH LOADS TO GIVE. OOH HOW I LOVE THE NIGHT...:)

my best gift was her surprising me at my doorstep.
she came to meet me.
to see her right in front of my eyes.
and hugging her.
and feeling the love again.
my best birthday gift was you.
best birthday gift.

a hug from him.
his hands securing me from the evil world.
from my fears. from my phobias. from my troubles.
moments with him i treasure. every single moment.
theyre beautiful.
simply beautiful.

a huge thank you to all those who wished me.
regardless whether those who called, smsed or sending testimonials at friendster.
thank you so much for the wishes.
i love you all.
ALL OF YOU.

to fadz, fifi and saba.
thank you for the surprise!
love you all to bits and pieces.
an awesome day..or rather night! hahha
and more camwhoring pleeeaaseee!

to farah
you need to update me about the trip byotch!
haha..i love you gurl!

to seri, ooze, zie.
thank you for wishing me darlinggs!

to ama.
im missing you soo much.
thanks for the wish!!!

to kakak.
you are the best gift for my birthday.
thank you.
thank you so much.
much love kak.=)

to muhammad ridzwan bin masuhan,
i still dont know ur race u annoying thing...
haha =) thank you for the beautiful night.
you ended my day well.
like a cherry on top of the ice cream!

a great 18th birthday indeed....
pictures will be uploaded soon.

18th birthday celebration with famm!

18TH BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WITH FAMILY...


An outing to changi airport with my lovely family.
celebrating my early birthday!!!

wohooo!!!

finally, i got my swensens treat!
ate my cookie summit!
oh god, it tastes like heaven!

after soooo long....

that was a gift from ayah..blanja all of us to swensens! love him muaks!
then mummy bought for me elizabeth arden perfume-provocative woman! wohoo! new smell for mieeee! ehhe...love her. my mother!
then abang and adik bought me a red rose...whow! it will add on to my many roses in my room...hehe..theyre dried already btw...and eventually the red rose will dry up and it will be preserved.

just like the love for my famm....

i love my day today!

alhamdulillah....thank you God...

princess hiesha...turning 18!

A lovely day...

An advanced birthday celebration.

time spent with you was wonderful.
everything went right.
everything seemed perfect.

but i know that its not going to be long.
things are not going to stay this right.
not for long.

its too perfect to be true....
just too perfect.

i thought it was your birthday!

ok2. you guys sooooo hafta hear this!! its darn farnie lahh!!

just now ferooze just called me like 12 plus and he was like happy birthday!!! and at the same time i was singing him a birthday song! until i was done, he asked me "kau nyanyi kan aku buat aper?" and i was like "isnt it your birthday?" and he was like "nooooo!" and i was like "its not my birthday too!" hahahha. we wished each other when its not even our birthday!!! ahhahahhahah soo much of knowing each other for soo many years and we still are not sure when is our fren's birthday...

hahha..and im still like laughing like a lunatic when im typing this down! hahah...darmn fannie lahhh!!!!

i need some answers God please...
is karma happening to me?

strength

I need to find my inner strength again.
Stand on my own two feet.
Cause you cannot always depend on others
To carry you up.

im sorry for being a bitch towards eu.
i just want the old times.
where we can just sit and talk crap.
i miss those laughing beatiful moments.

princess hiesha

the morning sunshine

woke up to the sounds of birds chirping.
woke up to the smell of fresh air.
woke up to the beautiful sight of the sunrise.

had breakfast with sleepyhead just now.
haha. he speaks of his name. yawned soo many times just now.
annoyingness!

and guess what!!! while i was drinking my bandung...i found a strand of hair inside my mouth from the drink. and the hair looks more like a bulu!!! ewww! cuz its short! and it went inside my freaking mouth. there and then i wanted to puke mann! and he can keep on laughing! busted rightt!!! ahha...he soo daym evil lahh...and a cat was tugging on my loooong skirt. what the hell is wrong today? haha...when i wanted to feel holy and dainty mesti jerr ader halangannyer...maybe im not made for daintyness (however the spelling is) huh? ahha...oh well.

but to see sleepyhead early in the morning sure makes my burden lighter and my headaches better.

thanks sweetie. i enjoy those quiet moments when we both just stare blankly and feeling the atmosphere we are in.

ALL WINTER LONG
IVE BORNE THE KNIFE THAT PRESSES
WITHOUT CEASING
AGAINST MY HEART.
DESPISING LIE
I HAVE TOLD EVERYONE
THE TRUTH:
TRUTH IS KILLING ME.

-alice walker

WHY?

WHY ARE YOU KEEPING SILENT?
WHY ARE YOU AVOIDING ME?
WHY ARE YOU REJECTING MY CALLS?

IS THERE NO FORGIVENESS FOR ME IN YOUR HEART?

WHY ARE YOU KEEPING US IN THE DARK?
WHY ARE YOU NOT REPLYING TO MY SMSES?
WHY ARE YOU REGARDING ME AS A NOONE?

IS THERE NO PLACE FOR ME IN YOUR HEART?

WHY?
WHY?
WHY?

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHATS GOING ON IN HER HEAD?
IM BOTHERED.

YANG HAYDEN

My beautiful Yang Hayden.

hehe..isnt he just adorable?? love this baby of mine!hehe...

who is his father? err...entah ehh...any Tom Dick or Harry uh. ahhah

siaow!!!

missing my sunshine a.k.a beautiful disaster a.k.a sleepyhead.

wohooo!!!

foodfest just now. ate like a pig hehehe! soo many sweet stuffs.

mummy bought new clothes for me...a dress. a skirt and a turtle neck top. wohooo!!! i need shoes!!!

anyhooo...my bdae is cuming. turning 18 beb!!! hehe

im missing my sister dearest. someone please tell her that i miss her soo much!

love,
princess hiesha