Sinarilah Qiblatku.

Oh Tuhan.

Limpahkanlah sinaran mu.
Cahaya mu.
Dalam mimpi yang menghantui ku di saat ini.

Oh Tuhan.

Tegakah aku meneruskan perjalanan ini?
Sanggupkah hati ini menarungi segala?
Berdayakah kaki ini berlangkah setapak demi setapak?

Oh Tuhan.

Semangat yang dulu pernah ku selimuti diri kini kian menipis.
Diri ku menggigil kesejukkan.
Menggigil ketakutan.

Oh Tuhan.

Kemana kah arah yang harus ku ikuti?
Ke kanan atau ke kiri?
Atau menjelajahi hutan mengikuti titian ini?

Oh Tuhan.

Ingin ku lari.
Ingin ku menyelam.
Ingin ku pergi.
Jauh dari semua ini.

Tapi Oh Tuhan,

kemana harus ku pergi?

Yang mampu ku lakukan adalah melangkah.
Langkah demi langkah.
Dengan tangan terbuka.
Menerima segala yang ada.
Pasrah.
Mungkin itu yang ku terdaya.

Oh Tuhan.

Trust

Everyone changes.
Everything changes.
But will your love change as well?

Now, eur doing things that eu used not to do.
And yes, it upsets me.
But then again, i dont know what to do.
But just BE okay.

it sucks when someone tarnishes that trust you have in him/her.
and as a result of that, you dont trust anyone at all.
not even yourself.
you doubt. you dont believe in anything. you dont have faith.

it just take one person.
just that one person.
for every faith that you have
to be GONE.

Just something simple

I just want to let down my hair.
Barefooted.
Feet beneath the sand.
Enjoy the gentle breeze.
Savour the quiet moments.
Embracing nature's beauty.
Put them shades on.
Once in awhile, dip the tired feet in the cool water.
Munching on some snacks.
Listening to happy music.
Feel the beat going through my veins.
Groove to it.
Mind cleared from all the cloudiness.
Heart emptied from all the anger and hatred.

A simple plain happy moment.
Please?

Yours to keep, forever.

He is so easy to love...=)

Dearest, don't you feel so low about yourself. Im to be blamed for everything. Ive changed you. Ive made you who you are now. I caused you to feel like this. Im sorry honey. I know that my apologies cant change anything. It doesnt change whats already happened. I made so many mistakes dear. I break you, i hurt you, i tear you apart.

You had always been there for me. And yet, i always take advantage of your presence. Get mad at you for small lil things. Unappreciative of your efforts. Demanding things, here and there.

Blame me dear. Blame me for everything. I am willing to do anything. Anything just for you honey. Just for us. I am willing to give all my efforts just to make sure that you're the one in the end for me. I dont want anyone else. This heart is locked. And only you have the key.

Whatever it is, whatever happens, whatever may come, i would always find you. I would always go back to you. I would always run to you. I would always yearn for you. Every single day, this heart and mind never stop thinking of you. You who robbed my heart and placed it in yours. You who took my hand and walked me through my life. You were there to hold me when i cry.

I dont want to ever go anywhere without you. I want to walk down the aisle with you. Holding your hand. I want to be there for you all the time. I want to be 'the one' in your life so bad. Noone else, except you.

Will it be you and me in the end? I pray.

Cos' you're my only hope.

9 year old me

When life is so blue,
I look upon you
And ask whether all these are true.

You held my chin up
Looked into my eyes
And said, "Im here for you."

Sometimes, i run around
Acting all stupid and cranky
And then i dropped down and cry
Feeling so lost and crushed

If you were to look deeper in my eyes,
You could see the 9-year-old me
You could hear my cries.
Dear God, please bring me back my life.
Cos' i cant bear to hear the goodbyes.

Baby, its you thats keeping me going on...

Miracle in Ramadhan

A miracle happened tonight. The speciality of the month Ramadhan. The strength and power of God. The strong love that we share. It brought us back together again. Never have i ever felt this strong presence but for once, i really felt His presence and i saw a miracle happening in front of my eyes. I saw it. I felt it.

Alhamdulillah. Thank you God.

Selamat mengerjakan ibadah puasa dan solat terawih kepada semua umat-umat Islam. Alhamdulillah we meet another month of Ramadhan to purify ourselves from our sins.