jiwang day....

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padamu seorang
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Penawar rindu
padamu seorang
Resah tak sanggup menanggung di jiwa
Salah tak tahu kasih bermula ( ulang 2X )
Bermula Peristiwa,
dalam ingatan
Kasih tercipta
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Tak ketahui
Hingga ku merana, merajuk hati
Membawa diri
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Kenapa selalu semangatku dikau puja
Penawar rindu padamu seorang

Kian jauh
Kian hilang
Kasih antara kita
Nampak tenang
Pada zahirnya
Tapi batin terseksa
Yang terguris tak nampak dimata
Yang terhiris terluka
Sesekali terbit air mata
Tahan sebak didada
Ke manakah..nak dibawa
Resah kian melanda
Di manakah
Hendak ku khabar
Pilu di dalam dada
Bila kasih di hujungnya nyawa
Rasa ingin dimanja
Perasaan pun kian tersentuh
Bila rindu ini berlabuh
Apakah yang dikejar dalam hidupmu
Berkali ku kata padamu
Kita singgah di dunia yang sementara
Penuh tipu daya
Yang kekal
Disana
Biarlah..kita bersama
Usahlah
Hanyut terus terlena
Kerana dunia
Pada aku masih ada
Kasih belum terhakis
Sebenarnya..sudah lama
Ku sungguh berkecil hati

yahh...i noe...im jiwang todae...ahha cant be helped....

adioso!

point of return...

hey....i know its been like decades since i wrote in...

sorrie comp has been down soo couldnt updte....

so im back....

life...? hows life???

firstly i wanna write an entry to a certain someone whom i loved....

yes...i realised not only that i need you. i loved you too. but have you ever realised that? all youve been doing is just making use of this stoopid fool...and me buyin those lies...why? cause i loved you too much to be blinded by those deceitful words...yes...why am i sooo stupid? i aint know...im weak...gullible...naive....but you made me realise that i have to depend on my own for my own happiness...you aint giving me anything dude...you aint providin me nything...just pain and sufferings..there were moments that i thought things could work out between us. but dude. reality slapped on me hard. yes i fell apart. yes i drowned myself with tears. but i aint gonna be weak. i gonna show you i can live without you. with god's help, you will be history. no. erased from my history. you really think youre some big shot ryte...well listen up dude...ur nothing! ur not even a man cuz u aint haf any balls to own up and stop lying....yes. COWARD. thats whut u are....


yus....you haf been a saviour...ahahha....thanks fer like making me laugh these daes...been enjoying evry single dae spent...ahaha woits! whut u ppl thinkin? ahaha hes my cousin...sorta...ahaha...tnx beb!

mua girlfrens...seri zie farah...been missing yall loads...im here if u guys need anything aits...

my dear sis....im missing ya...seriously....i wanna spend time wit ya...

ama dear....meet me soon...need a hug fromm ya...ahah...love you darl!

fazlina....im here fer u aits darl...just relax....take things slowly...

to the rest of my faithful readers...love you people...take care..and slamat berpuasa....!

simply special....

Dear seri,
this post is specially for you my dearest friend. firstly i would like to shout out a bigggg HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hhahah...and i am soo sorie i couldnt spend time witcha during ur bdae cuz i was in kl. nevertheless i hope u had fun wit farah zie and ooze that dae...and of course wit ur family...

seri, all these years ive known you, i have never regret being ur best friend, ur gurl, ur sista and ur partner in gossips (why shuld i regret about that? ahha). and though there were rough times we faced, those stabbing friends issues, those talking behind our backs, those jealousy moments, those bitching sessions about each other, those confrontations and those arguments...we have emerged out of those times still standing strong; hand in hand. this goes to show how strong our friendship is and no matter what i will not trade all those times we spent together-good or bad as they teach me something about me. about life. about friends. yes, ur my inspiration baby...inspiration to keep this friendship hangin on...cause i noe its daym worth it...

seri, you have changed alot. you are now a beautiful butterfly who has broke out of her cocoon...your insecurities...now you're a gorgeous confident young lady with loads of love in her fragile heart. sensitivity is what differentiates you and me. and is what i love about you. small little things make a difference to yhou and you tend to notice these small lil things. you appreciate these small nearly invisible things and never fail to smile and say thank you. i love you girl and seriously i love you.

no matter what happens ill be by your side. ill be your strength to move on. ill be your shoulder to cry on. ill be the light to brighten up your days. ill be anything...anything you want me to be.

girl, you know that yuo are special. gorgeous. unique. we love who you are. if guys just cant accept you for who you are then they are not worth it. show your trueself with them so u noe who really likes you and who doesnt and are just being a creep.

we will always be here fer you, seri rahayu bte mohd johari.

a special birthday wish for a special friend on her special day at a special time for she is worth the special treatment because she is simply...SPECIAL....

Endless love...

to all my dearest readers, soo soooorrriie didnt blog for soo long...wheeheh...ma lappy spoil uh...sorrie babes...ok shall start..

Dear Diary,
i just got back from k.l yesterdae. was fun..hahah stayed at flamingo hotel and d ironic part is that it is d same room which we stayed when we went on a holiday with cik bari's family...heheh...mcm tau2 jerr...hahahah...weel miss those times...had fun...like real fun after soo long...and well the meeting him part was another wowness...hahaha...why must you reappear again in the picture? found out he talked about those times to his friend who happens to be my second cuzzin..oh well...hheheh kinda miss him...

alright back to the k.l trip i just recently got back from, it was hrmm short. nevertheless fun cuz met abg dek a'. kak wani's bf...hahah we went out to eat at what 12 plus...3 of us onli...kak wani drove...best sakz...hes soo funny...and theyre such romantic couple...daym...was feeling really pathetic being single when i saw the happiness they shared, how they looked at each other, how they never fail to give each other a smile, how they held their hands tightly and not wanting to let go...haizz.....how sweet....

hrmm we went there cuz gt wedding ceremony of one of our relatives...hrmm she looked great that day...gorgeous....we went to the ceremony on the second day and at night went out to petaling street to shop..hehehhe...bought some stuffs there...kak wani's family oso went...then after that me and kak wani went to meet her bf while d kids went back to d hotel and d adults went out to eat...

alyssa, my cousin, hahah..had fun with her...great company she was...daym lame...

hrmm during d trip i finished reading my book called "washingtoniette". hahahah...seriously, i recommmend book lovers out there to read dis book...hahahha...its soooo funny and very sexy and some parts outrageous content...hahahhahahahha and these words actually impacted me alot..."i'll get him back. i thought. i don't know how, but i will" and "i knew that all i had to do was wait and you would make all of this possible". hrmms....been thinking...alot....about adeen...

well...alot more reading to do...and i wanna work...! ahahha and missing my cousin siti fairuz a.k.a fifi alot!!!!!!! like daym lot!!!!!! hahha missing ya babes....and mua drama fwens...seperti syida, bijan, farhana, ili, etc...haizzz...miss drama soo much...den missing my gfs...farah, seri(a special post for u cuming ryte up), zie, ooze (alah u my gf sudahlah) hahha and ama...!!!! miss u bitch! muakz!

i oso wanna wish my momma a big HAPPY BIRTHDAE! hahaha tnx sis and bijan fer helping me buy mua momma's prezzy...hehe...she loved them..huahaua...momma, if ur ever reading this, know that you will never be replaced in my heart, mind and soul. you will always be my momma and my bestfriend and my sister and my gossiping partner...tho we haf alot of arguments between us but in the end i will always love you...spent soo much quality time during d k.l trip and i greatly appreciate that. thank you God for giving me a loving mother who though make me cry never fail to make me smile too. God, please don't take her away from me...cause i cannot imagine my life without her...love you momma...muakzs!

till then,
lots of love from mua...
hidayah.