Fly.

mood: energetic and smiley
music listening to: Butterfly-mariah carey
crazy desire: hugging my baby till he sleeps

Its an early morning and lect is cancelled when i already reached is sch. How nice!!! hahahha...but it was slenger me not to check. Btw, today is last day of 2007. So lets do alil reminiscing...what happened in 2007...

I found The One. And this heart is totally immersely in love with him. He who shines my heart with all the wonders in life. I may be monstrous, more cranky, more fatter, but he stayed by me all along. And i thank God for the presence of him. Muhammad Ridzwan bin Masuhan, the name carved in my heart. <3

My sister found her true love too. And theyre happyily embraced in each other's love. And i truly love her with all my heart. Though there were many HUGE misunderstandings with her...many squabbles...another soul who was there for me each time i turn and need to fall onto someone.

Fahimah. A sister that i never once had. Fadzley. A brother that i never once had. And we became closer in 2007. Though fadzley went on a 'vacation' but im sure he will come back soon...please. I love them both very much.

My darlings...farah,sery,zie,ooze. We kinda drifted apart...but towards the ending half of the year we kinda got closer. A loss that cant be replaced-nenek sery. I miss her alot at times...i can still see her face in my mind...smiling at the very sight of me when i came to visit her at the hospital. Darlings of mine, though we're far, we're very near at heart. And how can i not love these bunch of girls? Oh, and 1guy! hahaha...love them. Hugs and kisses!

Met beatiful girls-rina & wati. They, my sweetoos. heheh...Been there for each other. Thank God, tht i met and got close to them. Coz, its something that i would not trade. The friendship that we shared, its beautiful. Gorgeous love!

Life was a hell of a ride this year. Many ups and downs...but the ups always manage to erase all the down moments...and to appreciate the love i have around me, is something i learn to grasp.

God, i love you and thanks for the love...

shopping bebeh!

Shopping with family was therapeutic! =P

2 new sandals for me. 1 long cardigan. 2 tube(cause apparently mommy ask to buy. must cover2.) was enough to satisfy my shopping needs.

plus, baby and me have cleared it out.

mood: elated.
song listening to: 9 crimes
crazy desire: to have pancakes with ice cream (pretty please!)

Tell me.

Tell me what i could do to make things right?
To be in your arms again?
To be clasping your hands with mine?

Its getting too heavy, the weather.

Can i have my sunshine back?

The beautiful love we shared
The laughters, the smiles, the joy of being in each other’s company
Where is all that?
Are they hiding underneath the blankets?
Or in between the couch?
Please.
Cause I want them back.

Patience. Is what you used to have.
Is what made me attracted to you.
Is what made me admire you.
But where is it now?
That too is lost?

You had all the strength to withstand my anger.
But im not a vicious monster who gets angry over nothing.
I don’t.
There must be a reason.
A reason to everything.

Yes, I still feel the pinch of that day.
I still feel the pain.
Tell you what.
Im afraid.
Afraid of meeting you.
Afraid that it will turn out the same way as that day.
Maybe that’s the underlying cause of all these.

I don’t wanna disappoint you or get disappointed again.
At least not for now.
Its been a week.
Things been rough.
We need a breather.
Is that with or without each other?
The answer for me is with.
But for you, that lies in your heart.

Whatever it is, I would do anything for your happiness.
Even if it means leaving you.

Alone.

Mending the broken heart.

i miss the goodnight's kisses.
i miss the never-let-go hugs.
i miss the sweet i love yous.

Can i?

Can i stop wishing and dreaming?

Happenings.

Alot has happened during this course of time.

1)Alone time at the beach.
was ermm...self-reflecting.sad.but thereapeutic.

2)Mid-sem tests.
SUCKS.

3)Chilling at the beach with darlings.
comforting her.missing fadz so much.emotional.just wanna be there for her.love them to bits.

4)Slumber party.
FUN LIKE HELL! loved it.

5)Now.
missing fadz so much. wanting him so bad. missing my sayangs. farah,seri,zie and ooze. i badly wanna see them and hug them tight. praying that fima is ok. feel kinda low. dunno why.

-please be okay. make it right again, pretty please.-

Storm.

Tables are turned.
The world's changing.
Karma's making its rounds.

A taste of my own medicine.
The pain that i can taste with my tongue.
The sorrow that pierced his heart and now mine.

I shall take it that you're going through a storm.

baby,i'm not gonna stop trying. this i promise you.