you and my senses

the thought of you made me smile.
the sight of you made my stomach flutter.
the smell of you made me weaker.

sayang.

this feeling of hurt.
the way youre treating me.

sudden silence.
sudden retrieval of your presence.

without telling me why.
without any saying of goodbye.

did i scare you off?
or am i too much of a burden to you?

yes.

i want you.
to be there for you.
to heal your wounds.

but i guess im not the person for you.
and that will never change.

usah biarkan ku bersendirian.

yours faithfully,
princess hiesha

TP- the place to be

TP-the place to be.

it was a wonderful performance.
the response was sort of weird
but well great to hear the applause after that.

all the scoldings we received from victor
all the trainings we had to come down
all the emotional roller coaster ride

it was fruitful in the end.
great working with them.
fun. fun. fun.

SHES NOT DEAD GUYS!!!!!

hahaha.....

signing off,
mimi.

bukan maksud ku untuk membisu.

life has been hectic for hiesha.

with beyond o levels coming up.
projects.
presentations.

but she seemed to be contented.
and happy.

maybe because of that simple someone.

seriously.

never had she been this happy.
and calm.
and able to think properly.
and not rush.

she is contented.
she is happy the way it is now.

she is just being there for him
and hopefully doesnt surrender her heart to him.
yet.

like what her sister said.

if she does that
he may take advantage of her love.
and she may get hurt.

again.
repeating her mistakes.
again.
and again.
and again.
and again.

so shes gonna be real now.
be more sensible person.
and not her normal girly girl thingy.

wish her luck!


signing off,
princess hiesha

apa ertinya cinta?

apakah itu cinta?
adakah ia suatu persahabatan?
atau suatu perasaan yang tiada ungkapannya?

apakah pula perbezaan antara cinta dan sayang?

tiada perbezaan?
kedua-duanya sama?
hanya suatu talian?
yang memperikatkan dua tali hati yang berdasarkan perasaan?

atau ada perbezaanya?

cinta-suatu perasaan yang realistis.
suatu perasaan yang tiada bandingannya.
suatu perasaan yang tak dapat diluahkan
cinta hanya dimiliki oleh seorang yang diberikan cinta daripada pencintanya.

sayang-perasaan yang boleh dikenal pasti.
yang membuat hidup mu bahagia.
sayang yang boleh diperbahagikan.

tapi cinta?
adakah ia boleh dikongsi?

jadi,
apakah itu cinta?
apakah ertinya cinta?
adakah cinta dalam hati?

cinta.
seribu soalan tentangnya.
tetapi tiada jawapannya.

yesterday

am i demanding too much from you?
am i thinking too much?
am i repeating my mistakes?

you were extra nice yesterday.
you were extra loving yesterday
and dont forget extra flirtatious.
hrmmm. but err...im fine with it?

hahah. im being such a bitch.

the moments three of us shared.
raz.fadz.me.
alot was discussed. shared. expressed.
and i love every single minute of it.
ill be here for you raz....
i will.

a guy named asyraf.
appeared into my life.
without a slightest of my knowledge.
or any hints.
he just
appeared.

he made me feel right.
he made me feel happy.
and he was able to make me feel
special.

mistakes.
aint wanna repeat them.
so come what may.
let it be.
if its meant to be, it'll be.

im sorry honey i caused you trouble yesterday.

ill be here for you. her. him.
anyone.
am always here.
if you need me.
just open your eyes
and you can see me by your side.

always,
princess hiesha

the one?

why when i need you the most, you ignored me?
why when i need a shoulder to cry on, you were never there for a helping hand?
why when i feel so lost, you run away from me?

i have to learn to move on.
i have to learn to let go.
i have to learn to love him.
as just a friend.

out of nowhere.
suddenly there is this particular character.
coming out from the woods.
with his horse riding
and his sword shining mightily.

a prince.
who seems to have all the things that i need.
is God answering my prayers?
sending someone to safe me
from all this plight
and emptiness?

i hope.
and i prayed.
that he could love me
more than i love him.

till then,
princess hiesha
a.k.a
(mimi)

moments of us.

the day i went out with my loves....hearts them...it was such an enjoyable day. took me away from all plight. they, who bring wonders to my life. thank you hunnehs for the wonderful day!

signing off,
pincess hiesha.

a head start.

firstly a very good year i wish to all my fellow readers.

alot has been going on in this little world of princess hiesha.

her resoultions for the new year. her dreams. her goals. she want to achieve at the end of the year. with all her might and support from her friends and family members and with God's guidance hopefully she can achieve them.

a friend. she is so confused. she is afraid. to stand up fot her own rights. for her ownself. she, who should not be treated that way. she, who should be appreciated and taken care of. she, who wears a happy mask wherever she goes but when shes on stage performing, that is the real her. she, is troubling inside. girl, nobody will hurt you anymore from now on. noone will treat you bad. we will help and protect you. remember you are not a lonley living soul.

love. love the person to the extent of not expecting to be together. willing to scarifice her happiness for his. willing to seek solace in his joy. willing to be there for him tho he had never been there for her. willing to sacrifice her love for his. he will always be part of me. no matter how much i run away. truth. truth never lie. sacrfice. happiness. sincerity. purity. love.

work and projects bombarded her life. her leisure time. her freedom. stressed up at some point of time. angry at most times. patience at once in a blue moon. so for that, i want to make a public apology if i had at least once raised my voice to you.

acting. a book i read. acting. my life. acting. my passion. acting. where i want to soar. acting. is where i found a whole bunch of wonderful people whom is part of my life now. acting. allow me to express myself. acting. makes me let go of my fears, anger, dissapointment. acting. is where i never want to fail. acting. is where i will fight till the end. acting. is all about me.

till then,
princess hiesha