When sanity decided to leave.

What if your whole life was just a hallucination?
What if all those smiles and laughters are just part of your imaginations?
Your dreams of having a better life;
But to mask whats real.

I dreamt that he passed away for quite some time.
But i continued life as if he was there.
Went out with him and his friends.
Had fun and all.
I could feel him, touch him, feel his presence.
Thinking that he is real.

Until that night,
He didnt give me a goodbye hug
And i couldnt feel his kiss on my forehead.

I came home.
Kak Nur called me up.
Asking how i was.
And i said i was fine, just came back frm sheesha with wan and friends.
There was silence.
Then finally, she said, "Adik, dia dah takda."

I was confused.
What did she mean by that?
Accident? When? How? Where is he now? What happened?
"No, adik. Dia dah lama tak ada. You must accept it."

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When i woke up, i realised i was crying.
With real tears and heavy breathing.
It felt so real.
It was hauntingly scary.

I need you badly now.
To hug me and tell me,
Its just a nightmare.
Please.