The night.

Thursday...

Went swimming with adik. Swam 10 laps ahhh...hahah...but in an hour! blahh! hahaha. so damn long lah. but oh god, i realized how short breaths i have and how i cannot control my breathing at times...but i had some bonding time with adik and adik taught me how to swim properly. (though i didnt really get it perfectly done but i tried at least. =P hehe!)

After sending ashraff home, went to safra bowling and watched the guys bowl. That night, though i am physically there, my mind and heart was somewhere else. As you might have guessed, yes. I was missing him so bad. That night was terrible. Everything i touch just reminds me of him. Every single thing. There was a moment of time where i couldnt breathe. Cause my whole mind was so occupied with his images and i was trying so hard not to cry that i find difficulty in breathing. That night he was very busy, so he called late. We talked for awhile only cause he had to sleep.

I told him i would be going off soon. But plans changed. We went to lepak instead. And stayed the whole night outside. Kakak, me, man, yat. The whole night i wished that he would be there with me. I was missing him so badly and i knew if i were to go home, i would spend the night crying and i wouldnt sleep until like what 6 am? Thats what i have been doing past nights. Cry myself to sleep. So in order to avoid that, i decided to spend the night with my friends.

At 6am, i called him to wake him up. Yes, he was angry. Angry that i didnt tell him i didnt go home. Angry that i didnt go home. He didnt msg me a morning msg that night. He didnt sound okay when he put down the phone on me. When i reached home, i cried so badly.