once upon a time....

ever thought of whether each of you have ever been traumatised till it scares the shit out of you till dis very dae? till you're actualli living thru the nightmares of waking up feeling afraid? alone? scared?

a boy.

traumatised by his own mother. who apparently did not go for anger management class. lost control of herself. almost hit him with a wooden thing. till dis dae he cried upon reminicsing those moments. still wondering whether his dear mother was trying to kill him.

weird.

pissed. angry. cried.

because of them. this friendship has taught me alot of things. that i cant have everything. that i have to compromise. that i have to understand. that we are no longer in the same school. and dat keeps us apart. why? cause i am too busy. busy with things around me. busy trying to put up a happy front. busy hiding my feelings. my pain. my hurt from them. busy is what they said. busy to lack of communication to we are not like last time. my fault. my bad. that i thought this will never be an issue. that i was too ambitious. that i dream and wish too much. a girl facing reality that nothing in this world stays the same. love them too much that didnt realise i might be seeing them slip from my own fingers. string of friendship could snap. anytime. realised that i cant take things for granted. i am gonna mend this. promise.

a troubled fren.

noone wants to help her. her plight. her problems. her suicidal hormones. as long as this author lives i wont let this character drown in her sorrowness. my dear fren, leave him. your family is there waiting for you with open arms. i will guide you with the almighty's help. insyallah. dun ever give up. this is your biggest task/challenge. you can do this.

my beloved family.

am loving them more every single dae.

the family of dramaticians.

this heart beats for our success.

dear sister.

the best character in my life story.