whirlpool of emotions

have you ever felt that
you want to drown yourself in tears?
you want to just cry onto someone's shoulders and keep on crying?
you want to just run away from all the chaos?

i need it badly.
can someone tell me how?

baby, please hold on to what we have. i may not be always there for you now, you know that. im caught up with schedules and etc. baby, thanks for understanding. thanks for still showing your concern despite the pain i put you through. baby, youre a miracle that happens to me. and i thank God for that. i love you baby, i love you so much. thank you honey. thank you for being my smile and my rainbow. thank you sayang for being the patience when all i do was being angry at small lil things. thank you for being the strength when i felt like giving up. baby, stay with me. stick with me. cause i need you to be with me on this ride.

to my darlings, i love you guys no matter whut. i swear i always feel the pain rejecting ur offers to meet up and not being able to attend our chillin sessions and not being able to call yoou guys and ask what has been happening. i miss you guys.

damn, i miss you guys.