me:a bad friend

i am crying....crying my hearts out...

how could she do this? how could she doubt the love and loyaly i have in our friendship? how could she say we have not been truthful? how could she accused me that way.

how am i suppose to tell her and assure her she's always in my mind and heart? how am i suppose to tell her that i love her so much? how am i suppose to tell her ta despite my tight schedule she can always come to me if she has any probem.

frankly im bombarded with loads of projects and problems...why does she have to be sensitive? why does she have to be this way? why does she claim that i dont know her? why must she hurt me this way?

you should understand me...i thought friends should understand each other....i thought friends should know that although we nva contact each other they are still remembered...i thought friends should know that no matter what they can just come to them whenever they need help...i thought...i thought...i thought...

i was wrong...when i am realli busy people say i pull mysef away from them...what am i suppose to do?

someone please tell me what am i suppose to do? what am i suppose to feel? what am i suppose to react?

i am tearing....beacuse it hurts...it hurts when your friends say you do not know them...so what are those 4 yrs of friendship known for?

i am tearing...because she thought we are going our separate ways...

i am tearing...because i am feeling the pain. the loss. the yearn. the emptiness.

you do not know what i am going through. you do not know how i feel.

friends will not hurt other friends with her words....

thank you...

for making me realise what a bad friend i was.....

thank you....

for making me realise i am not worthy to be called a friend....

thank you...

for telling me i do not know you....

thank you...

for making me realise i have failed as a friend....

thank you....

for i am not your friend....

however...you'll always be mine....