you need him because you love him OR you love him because you need him?

He keeps me sane.
He keeps it real.
He keeps it sincere.
He keeps it simple.

We tumble. We fumble. We crawl.
We rise. We fall.

At times i sit down.
Just thinking if ever one day hes no longer mine.
What will i do?
How will i handle it?
How will i cope?
And the thought of it, i swear, will always make me cry.

It came to a point where i just cannot imagine whats life without him.
Who am i suppose to message everyday?
Who am i suppose to call every night?
Who am i suppose to smile about whenever the thought of that person comes to mind?

But most importantly, who could ever tolerate me?
Who could ever accept me with all my flaws?
I came to believe that ONLY he could get me out of my bad habits.

He does not make things easy for me.
He taught me things the hard way.
He will ensure that i learn.
He will talk sense into me.
He will make me realize.
What a spoilt brat i am.

Regardless of who i am.
What ive become.
What im going through.
He has been there.
Through it all.

I love him so much that i know i will go insane when hes gone.
I cant live without him.
I cant breathe without him.

I need him because i love him.
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Ok, prolly im drunk with love right now. =)
But its been awhile ive blogged about him.
I think. Hehe.

Anyways, we went out just now.
Went to Plaza Singapura to catch Madagascar 2 and had dinner together at KFC.
Been awhile since we've went out and have some fun together.
Watch a fun movie.
Him taking my hand and kissing it.
Me being in his arms feeling his warmth.
At the end of the day, a kiss on the forehead.
Leaves me on the high till now. =)

He at times does things unexpectedly.
Ok, i just had to rant this out.

Initially, when we were walking, i wanted to hold his arm. For a few seconds, it stayed there then he will fidget. Or dont allow me to like hold his hand. Yesterday i wanted to lie on his shoulders but he shrugged and fidget. Gestures of not wanting those physical affection. It brought me to tears just now. So while he was queing at starhub to collect his queue number, i stood outside. Intending to wait for him there till hes done. Then he came beside me then asked me why i was standing outside. I said i was waiting for him cuz if i were to sit down, he would be searching for me. Then he asked me this. "You dont want to queue with me?" I just kept silent. Cos at that point of time, i was already on the bridge of tears. Been 1 week i didnt see him so i just want a lil affection. Too much to ask for? But then when wer sitting down waiting for his number to be called out, he suddenly held my hand.=) He always does things at the unexpected moment and timing. But the timing is always perfect. Just in time to discard all those negativity and bring that glow in my heart. And make me smile. Hehe.

Hes simply amazing.
Simple thing he does.
His smile.

Im always very happy when he started talking about something.
That means he has warmed up for the day. Hehe.
Just like an engine, it needs to be warmed up before the car could run.
Yerp, thats my baby!

He makes me a very happy goopey woopy loopy woman today.
(Whatever that means. =P)

I love him. <3