I don't exactly know what happened to me. I just broke down. Literally. I cried and cried. I would like to name it as nervous breakdown? Boleh tak? haha. bak kata asryaf, "EH AKU PEH PASAL AH. BLOG AKU!" bak kata dia. bak kata hydil, "PUNCUK PANGKAL DIRI SENDIRI AH!" palabuu. hahaha! am in love with that word recently. made me miss thesse two bitches- asyraf and dyldo.

anyway, back to the topic.

smlm aku nangis. nangis rabak. i dont know. i just feel like crying it out. and guess what? my baby is beside me, wiping my tears away. dia cakap if it makes you feel good crying which it really did, he said cried it all out. and i did. i lay on his shoulders and first sobbed. then cried. and the tears would not stop flowing. and all he did was stroking my hair and wiping my tears away and made me laugh. haha! that was what i needed. God, hes an angel sent by you issit dear God? To help me with my life, insecurities, weaknesses, ego. Cause dear God, hes the BEST gift ever. thank you, for everything God. thank you.

and to my baby there, hey sayang...at this hour, youre still snoring away on the bed. and im getting ready for my LAST paper. i want to get it over and done with. just like you said. i miss you sayang. and thank you for the shoulder, for the listening ear, for making me laugh, for wiping those tears for me. what would i ever do without you? id rather not live. cause now, my LIFE is you.

to my another b...i was so worried ok sayang. damn worried about you. please be okay sayang...we will be there for you. =) always.